Writing my Way Back to Me
I have a confession… Lately, my heart has ached when I see the beautiful woman my husband likes on TikTok and watches on TV. (We both like to watch the Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders for different reasons. He likes the girls, and I like the dancing.) Before you roast my husband for being an insensitive jerk,…
My husband and I have been watching some of our favorite movies from the 80s and 90s with my stepdaughter on the weeks that she’s with us this summer. A few weeks ago, we watched City Slickers. The scene where Jack Palance’s character Curly explains to Billy Crystal’s character Mitch what the meaning of life…
I used to buy into the lies we tell ourselves about toxic relationships. Tell me if any of these sound familar? A funny thing happened as I worked on myself and got healthier (physically and emotionally) and happier. The people I chased and made excuses for never changed. They still didn’t make an effort. They…
Friday, the toilet in our master bathroom broke. At the time, I thought it just needed to be plunged, which I couldn’t do on crutches. (I had foot surgery last week.) My husband was exhausted from a day of farm work and was passed out on the couch. I didn’t remember to tell him about…
I mentioned in my last post that I’ve been thinking a lot about the lies we tell ourselves to make bad situations tolerable. One of those lies is that love is hard. It isn’t. Love is only hard when you’re trying to force it in toxic relationships. Love is as easy as breathing when you’re…
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the lies women tell themselves. We’re really good at pretending we’re happy when we’re not, at pretending we’re ok when we’re not. I’ve been unlearning how to do that. One of the biggest lies I told myself? I was happy being fat, because it was normal to gain…
I hate apologizing, but not for the reason you might think. I hate it, because I apologize for EVERYTHING. My ex-husband once told me that I never apologize. I know now that he is a covert narcissist and was emotionally manipulating me. I didn’t know that then. Back then, I was trying to do everything…
I have to confess. One of the things that has held me back is a fear that putting myself out there would set me up to have other people tear me down. I’ve had the same conversation with my BFF over and over again. We both hold back to please others and to keep from…
In the last year, I’ve made a lot of changes in my life. Literally every life change except having a baby, which ain’t happening! All positive, and I’m on the right path more than ever. BUT… It left me feeling like my dreams and my business model just didn’t work anymore. I took a short…